Here we are - already September. A mere 37 days left until we hit the 1 year mark. Can it already be so? My soul is heavy and I am on the edge of tears these days. I think that a year seems so long and at the same time seems so short. So much has happened within this year - I am learning how to be a person apart from my husband. I am having experiences and meeting new people that have never met my dearly beloved. IT is WEIRD and when I think about it in these terms it makes me want to SCREAM! Then God gently reminds me that this is ALL for His glory! Please lift us up - I am in desperate need of your prayers!
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You've got it sweet friend. I knew something was up, so I've been praying and praying. I wish I could be there to cry with you - remember how healing tears can be? I love you!
Yes, yes, yes...praying like crazy, sister. You may find that as you near the anniversary, your grief intensifies...you forget what it is to hurt so much because God has been gently healing your heart. So the intensity of the pain can take your breath away! Cry when you need to cry; scream when you need to scream; and lay it all at Jesus' feet. I am praying for sweet reminders of your sweetie and for special support during this tender time. Praying, praying, praying!
You are on my heart often. I will pray for your sweet family. I just stopped and prayed for you now.
Thank you for expressing what you're going through.
We've been concerned about your family as this sad anniversary approached and have been praying for you and the children every day. We love you and miss Sixbit very much.
There is much that we don't understand about his death, but what we do know is comforting. I was reminded recently of the nearness of eternity; we will see him again!
I can hardly leave a comment right now because I'm getting too emotional to type-- the tears make it too blurry to see what I'm doing... Just yesterday I told my BH that it was already September and we were nearing that one-year mark. I can't even believe that eleven months have already passed. Phone calls, conversations, hugs, tears, pictures, stories... all that I remember just as well if it had been last week. It doesn't even seem possible.
I hope SB has his little window up in heaven so he can look down and see how much we think about him. We knew that he'd have been high-fivin' B#3 after he got his head stapled together, that they'd have their special little "staple club" to share. Right after we left the dr's, we went to lunch. We were telling B#3 how his Uncle SixBit got staples, too. B#3 wanted to know how he got his, being as he had just been stabbed in the head with scissors. I said, "he was riding his stationary bike." N and I both busted out in the giggles and could not stop. Oh, we miss him so much... but I just love how even in all the tears, we can find something to laugh about.
Praying for you {{{E}}}, love Denise
One more thought, sweet friend. The day of Chuck's anniversary was filled with joy, fun, and a few tears. Alas, it was the WEEKS building up to the event that almost undid me. I hear this is common. I pray the time leading up to your honey's death reminds you to cling to Jesus...and that THE anniversary is filled with somthing very Sixbit-like. Sending you love!
we love you. so, so much! like i said the other night, call me ANYTIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We're praying for you guys.
Thank you dear friends for you sweet thoughts! Jan - I am certain that you are right about the work up to the big day. This has been the case for virtually every mile marker along the way. THis one just seems so much bigger. I am shooting for a SWEET day filled with tears, joy and sunshine!
I am so thankful for the people God has given me and put along my path. I am honeored and humbled by each of you!
LT - so glad that B#3 could join the staple club. I know that Brent would give him a big high 5! I miss you guys ALOT!
We still pray for you & the kids every night during Abigail's bedtime prayers! (She graduated from her crib to a "big girl" bed)
I love you Pinks! I am praying for you and the kids and the LT family. I can't believe it's been a year either and I am awe of the evidence of God's amazing grace in your life this last year.
Nancy Guthrie says in the chapter on Tears that, "Our faith gave us an incredible amount of strength and encouragement...and we are comforted by the knowledge that (their daughter) is in heaven. Our faith keeps us from being swallowed by despair. But I don't think it makes our loss hurt any less."
This says to me that because we have Christ we can't avoid the tears in this world, but we are given hope.
I'm so so sorry for all your tears and suffering. We cry with you and for you.
Love,
Jaz
Love, Love, Love the new blog background! It is so awesome! How did you do this? I have seen a few others that are neat like this but I am not with it enough to even begin to know how to do it... Very cool! :)
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